Just venting.

Sometimes I feel I'm not good enough
Sometimes I'm afraid I'll never stop seeing that shadow
The one following my steps
Haunting my happiness
I just want to chase it away
But I know I can't
I'm so powerless to stop anything
But I can't pretend its not there
Is it a figment of my imagination?
Is it real or am I looking for something that's not there?
I want to be happy but I can't rest
thingking it might sneak up on me in my peaceful slumber
Will I ever be happy?
Can I ever rest?
Fear gripps my heart
I cannot stop it
How can I love
Can I really trust my whole heart to anyone?
Can I finally be at peace?
Or will I always wonder what is the truth
Can I see through lies
Or am I just a fool?
Will you tell me the truth?
Would you ever lie to me?
Will you love me forever or will you leave me?
I want to ask, I want to trust
But how can I?
The shadow follows me and I think I see it behind your every move.
Will it follow me forever?
And does she follow you?